“How lovely is Your dwelling place, Lord of Hosts. I long and yearn in the courts of the Lord; my heart and flesh cry out for the living God. Even a sparrow finds a home and a swallow, a nest for herself. Happy are those who reside in Your house and praise you continually.” Psalm 84:1-4
If it doesn’t open, it’s not your door.
How many times have we stood at the threshold of a closed door after it has been slammed shut in our face? The sound of the deadbolt locking sirening defeat.
Maybe it was your dream job calling to tell you the resume you’ve worked your whole life to build wasn’t good enough or maybe it was the carpet getting ripped out from under the relationship you really thought was it. Maybe it was not being able to find the heartbeat at the sonogram for the baby you’ve prayed for for so long or being unexpectedly released from the team that was supposed to be the ticket to your dream.
Big, heavy doors shut right in your face.
I long and yearn in the courts of the Lord; my heart and flesh cry out for the living God. So you’re standing in the hallway clutching the corpse of a dream, nose-to-nose in disbelief with disappointment. You were banking on what was behind that door, you’ve exhausted yourself trying to beat it down and the last thing you feel like doing is saying thank you, Jesus.
I know right now it feels a little bit like betrayal, maybe a lot like promises were broken, but listen to me: your breakthrough will come through your hallelujah, and maybe your hallelujah is in the hallway.
“Along about midnight, Paul and Silas were at prayer and singing a robust hymn to God. The other prisoners couldn’t believe their ears. Then, without warning, a huge earthquake! The jailhouse tottered, every door flew open, all the prisoners were loose.” Acts 16:25-26
Our response to disappointment has the power to either feed or starve it. Paul and Silas didn’t allow bitterness to get in the way of their breakthrough. They chose to sing praises in the belly of prison, and it was their praise that shook the chains off and flung the doors wide open.
“Happy are those whose strength is in You, whose hearts are set on pilgrimage. As they pass through the Valley of Tears, they make it a source of spring water.” Psalm 84:5-6
I love this Scripture. When we know where our strength comes from it gives us permission to enjoy the journey and the authority to disarm the spirit of defeat.
One, if not the most freeing thing I’ve learned in my walk with Jesus is that often His protection comes in the form of closed doors and rejection from the world. What a relief it is to know that this is part of the pilgrimage.
If it’s closed, if you feel that rejection, it’s not your door. Or maybe, it is your door, but it’s not time for it to open. And, unpopular opinion: it’s not closed because God is mean, it’s closed because He loves you so much.
An inheritance claimed too soon will not be blessed at the end. Proverbs 20:21.
He has made everything beautiful in its time. Ecclesiastes 3:11.
He withholds no good thing from those who walk in integrity. Psalm 84:11
Either way, you’re in the hallway and I promise you, He is working in your waiting, preparing things in His time behind the scenes that you couldn’t fathom if you tried. Stop trying to pick the lock. There is good in this season. There is a hallelujah here.